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Okay, so this is going to be a very imperfect podcast episode. I do have my lapel mic on, but I have an actual like 10,000 foot mountain of laundry to get done. And I can't justify like sitting still and recording a video podcast right now. But I also have so much on my mind and so much on my heart that I want to share. And I like processing these things.
in real time for my community because I do know when I listen to someone process something in their life real time, it's often like really relatable and helpful. And so I don't want to not record a podcast, but I do have to do laundry. So you're gonna hear background noise. I have my lapel mic on, so hopefully it will be minimized. My lapel mic is noise canceling.
But if you're not here for a wildly imperfect episode, then go ahead and just meet me in the next one. If you're OK with wild imperfections, then let's dive in because I'm to talk about how it feels three days after fully deciding that I'm closing my first business, which is Team Kristen L. Scene, which has been a decision that's been a long time coming. So let's dive in.
Okay, so like.
So the first thing I really want to say is obviously this decision has been a hard one, right? I mean, you start a business at age 25 and you have huge dreams for the business. And while some years were definitely better than others, overall, the business was profitable, especially last year, the business was the most profitable it had ever been. And part of that was because
I really started working on my success mindset in a more effective way two years ago. And I'm obviously gonna be sharing with you everything I learned from that through this podcast because I still like sharing these things, right? Like I'm ending a coaching business and an online course business, but I'm not ending being me, which is...
someone who is constantly working to improve herself and who wants to achieve high levels of success and is in the process of achieving high levels of success. it's a lonely road. It's a long road. It's a lonely road. And it is not always easy. know, I mean, I definitely believe that we have to believe that success is easy for us in order to achieve it. But
I mean, even if you believe it's easy, there's still going to be hard things. And so it was a very hard decision to let go of something I had built for six years, something that was, you know, definitely last year, a profitable income stream, something that was at some points in my life, you know, a very positive force and something that impacted thousands of people, you know, clients in my community.
all over the place. to close down something like this, it's not a decision you make overnight, right? And it had been brewing honestly for two years. For two years, I had been pondering the idea of closing my business. And I have to say most of that two year time period, it was very unconscious. Like I didn't know that I wanted to close this business and focus fully on writing books. But I knew
I knew it wasn't supposed to be at the forefront of my life, at least for the past two years. And I was just, you know, I'm an emotional authority in human design. And that means I have to ride my emotional wave. I have to take my time making decisions. And, you know, sometimes that emotional wave and that decision making process is two years long. So if you're also an emotional authority in human design and you're like, man, am I taking
too much time to make this decision. If it's a big decision like this, it might take you multiple years or at the very least many, many months. And I can honestly say up until Saturday, which today is Monday. So up until three, not even three full days ago, I had no plans to close the business. I was still going to keep the LLC open. I was still going to...
find new ways to support clients, even as I wrote my international bestselling romantic fantasy series and all the other things I want to write. Like, I had plans to do both, but there comes a time in your abundance journey, in your life, in your success journey, where you realize that, okay, you can't actually do everything all at once. Can you do it all? Yes.
But can you do everything all at once? No. And also there were big problems with my old business that were kind of like embedded in the fabric of the structure. And I'm going to talk more about that, of course. But I I realized as I was desiring more success for my book, which I am, I want to sell millions of books this year and I plan to and I will. And you'll hear me talk about that later on this podcast.
So like I have these massive plans for my book success. And with that, I was asking myself, because things have been very steady, but I haven't seen that exponential growth that I know I need to achieve my goals this year. And I was very focused and conscious asking myself, what needs to change? What needs to change for me to be a match?
for the exponential growth that I want to experience with my book. And there were a couple things that were related to the book and the marketing of the book and how I positioned the book and everything, of course. But then there was also things like, okay, well, what's in the way? What's the distraction? What is the energy leak? What is the energy vampire? And my own business had become that, right? My coaching business had become that.
For two years, I have not actively supported clients. I did a very like small scale, like very low cost monthly little group program last year. But other than that, it's been all like passive. It's been courses. So I haven't been involved in my clients lives all that help heavily, which I knew I needed that to write the book. So that was very intentional. And I also needed that for my mental health.
because I have realized, and this is a big part of why I'm closing the business, I am too sensitive of a human to be at this junction of my life, juncture, junction, whatever the word is. I am too sensitive of a human to be someone's coach, someone's mentor, to be someone who is heavily involved in someone's life and their business and their success.
and their spiritual evolution and their growth, which is all like that's all things I was doing in my old business. I was heavily involved even passively with the courses I sold and produced for clients and you know the workshops and all that stuff like I still was involved enough to where I felt like I was personally responsible if someone didn't get the results that they wanted and
Listen, I have worked on that belief for six years because from the very beginning I have I care too much right like I care too much about people I have this hugely empathic heart and when a client loses I feel like I lose when a client doesn't like their experience I put so much pressure on myself and
I want everyone to win. And there are things that I have done to become a better coach to make sure that happens. I got certified in a bunch of things. You've heard me talk about that. If you're a long time listener of this podcast and I've, you know, become a fantastic coach and mentor and I poured all of this energy into making myself the best I can be. But that didn't change the truth of the matter, which is that I am too sensitive to be that involved.
with people's lives. I don't have a thick enough skin to where if a client is angry at me or thinks that I betrayed them or whatever like stuff people project onto their mentors and coaches, like I can't handle that. And I've tried very hard to work on that within myself, but at a certain point you have to realize if it's like you do so much work to change yourself.
for the thing, in this case, the business, the clients, the natural experience of being a mentor, if you do so much work to change yourself for the thing, then is that thing really serving you? And if after all of these changes you've made to yourself, if the thing is still saying, like, you don't have a thick enough skin for this, you're not mentally and emotionally prepared to handle this,
then at that point is it just time to let this thing go and find something that is better suited to who you are naturally as a person. And I just for sure came to that conclusion two years ago when I decided I'm gonna make everything passive. I don't wanna coach people directly because it's too much pressure and I care too much. And then, know, when I decided on Saturday, literally, no, I'm gonna actually just close the whole thing down and focus on my publishing company.
then I realized, yeah, it's because I don't want this emotional stress anymore. I, you know, I don't know if you're a coach or if you've been a coach or maybe you have been a client of mine, but it's a lot of pressure and responsibility. And I think to a certain extent, even based on my own experiences with coaches and mentors, to a certain extent, you have to be extremely detached.
extremely detached from your clients. And I just could never do that. I, again, I don't have a thick enough skin for it. I'm not able to detach from people's emotions about what they think I've done to them or et cetera. And you know, the negative experiences with clients were very, very small and few and far between. But at the same time,
they happened enough and they affected me emotionally enough to where I realized it's just, this is not the career I want for myself. This is not, like when I have kids, I mean, we're trying to conceive right now. And I know for sure God has been like holding me back. Cause he's like, yo, you're not going to be able to handle this if you're also pregnant and or have a kid. So like you need to change things. So I just know like long-term, this was not the path for me.
It took me a long time to figure it out. It took me two years. And really it took me six years because obviously I started the business with the intention of having it forever. But I realized it wasn't forever. And for very good reasons. And no regrets about what I went through. I I learned so much that I'm going to apply to my publishing company and making my book a huge success. But I...
You know, I have to acknowledge that it was not a good fit. It was not a good fit for me anymore. Perhaps it was never a good fit for me, you know, because when I started my business, it was because I hated my corporate job and I was running away from something, right? Like I was running away from work that was unfulfilling. And my coaching business was fulfilling to a certain extent, but it also came with so many negatives. And
You know, at the time when I started this, I had no idea that it would come with these types of negative, you know, experiences and things that you just have to navigate as a business owner. And so of course I started the business with the intention of keeping it forever and growing it to seven figures and beyond. But literally the seven figure version of me, which I...
leaning into with my mindset over the past two years, she does not run a business like this. She does not run a business where she has that pressure and feels like she's emotionally responsible for people. And I've tried so hard to let go of that pattern within myself, but at this point I'm like, I think that's just me. I don't think I have to change myself anymore for the business.
if I have to change myself for the business and not in like a positive way, because, you know, the fact that I care so much about people is a good thing, in my opinion. I mean, yes, do I need to have a thicker skin like when I get a bad book review? Yeah, and I've, you know, I've worked on that very successfully because there's enough distance there where like if someone doesn't like my book or doesn't like me because of something I post online, there's enough distance there to where I don't...
feel personally responsible for that person's opinion of me, right? But when I'm like involved in someone's life because I'm coaching them, you know, it's a little harder. It's closer. anyway, so if you have to change yourself so much for the business, well, then maybe it's the business that's the problem, not you, right? Maybe the structure of the business, the way that you make money is the problem and not...
you because you are a miracle, right? Like God created you perfectly. So if something isn't working in your business and it's something that you've tried to work on with tools like mindset and restructuring your business model and all sorts of things. I tried all sorts of things to make this business work for me and my mental and emotional well-being and it just, it just didn't. It doesn't, it doesn't. So I've had.
to let it go. And yeah, so that was Saturday. That was not even three days ago. Saturday I was grieving hardcore. And I'm going to be really honest with you about like what I've been experiencing because it's really hard to let something like this go. Again, this is my baby. I thought for sure I would have this for my whole life and I'd be like a Shalene Johnson or an Amanda Francis and I will still reach that level of success but God was just very clear with me and was like, hey, listen.
You're gonna need to find a different way of doing this and getting to this level of wealth because this is not the path for you. And that's okay, right? Like we all have different strengths and weaknesses. And I don't think I'm a bad coach or teacher or whatever, but I need that distance. You know, I need that distance for my own sake and for my children's sake eventually when I have children. So anywho, podcasting works very great for that because...
I can just share my thoughts and if you don't like it, I usually don't hear about it. I mean, maybe you write a review, but I will not see you face to face on a Zoom call for our coaching session. You know what I mean? So I don't feel personally responsible for you if you don't like my podcast. And also you can just unsubscribe, right? So anyway, yeah. So you get to change and evolve. And we all have different gifts. And if something, if the business isn't working and you've tried to change yourself,
to get the business to be better for you, at some point it might just be the business. It might not be you, right? So use your discernment with that. But that is ultimately what I realized. Another thing, okay, so day one, Saturday, not even three days ago, day one, it was grief. I was grieving, I cried a lot. I was sad for the 25-year-old version of me because the other thing I realized as I've been closing down the business,
I've had to go through all of my content, all of the courses I created over the years. I've had to package them up for clients who paid for lifetime access because I am someone who believes in closing a business with integrity. So if I'm closing the business and you pay for lifetime access, I'm going to give you the files, right? So all my clients got emails about the files and how to download them and everything. And that's just...
You know, I've always believed like I'm going to do things right. I'm not going to be sleazy. So that is something I've been doing and it took me two days. It took me two whole days to package everything up. And I already had like a head start because I started to do it last year. And then I like talk myself into like trying to make it work more passively and that whole story. Maybe it was two years ago that I started that process anyway.
So I had a head start, but it still took me two whole days to go through everything. And I'm actually grateful for those two days because during those two days, I got to see things I created when I was 25 years old, which was six years ago. And even then, even then I was so good at what I was doing, but I couldn't see it.
I was so good and I look at like my very first course was called content that sells and it was like an Instagram course, but it also had like marketing fundamentals and.
And I was looking through some of the decks, like the PowerPoint presentations or whatever they're called. I wasn't watching all the videos because I didn't want to waste time doing that. But I was looking through all the worksheets and the decks and everything because I was curious, you know? And a part of me was like...
because I was curious about what I had created way back then. And I just wanted to kind of look, you know, and see and understand what I was like when I was 25 years old. And I'm not even joking you, like I was reading through it and I'm like, damn, like that is such a good tip. Damn, that's a really, really good way to think about creating content. Even for my book, I'm like learning things.
from a past version of me. I'm learning things from 25 year old Kristen. And I'm like, this is freaking brilliant. Like I see my brilliance from back then so much more clearly now. And it's wild because I definitely did not see my brilliance, you know, pretty much the entire time that that business was open. Only now, like this two year gap where I put things on the back burner with Tinker Snelsie.
Only now have I really started to see my brilliance. If you know human design, I have a completely undefined heart. No gates, no channels, nothing. It's all white. And this is a big, you know, wounding of the undefined heart is that you feel like you have to prove yourself. You can't see your own brilliance. And you, you know, you have...
difficulties knowing that you're worthy, right? And that is absolutely what my old business was all about. Like I was already brilliant. I was already sharing things that were highly valuable. So valuable that me with six more years of wisdom, I look back at what I created when I was 25 and I'm like, damn, this is like, this is fucking gold. I should have charged more money for this. And I also should have like built this foundation more. I should have come back to this content. I should have looked at it.
You know, can't cry over spilled milk, but everything I created when I was 25 and onward, it was so freaking good. It was so good. It was so powerful and I just could never see it. And if you can't see it, other people can't see it either. I mean, that's not totally true. I've gotten lots of sweet messages from former clients where they're like, wow, you changed my life so much. And, you know, don't think of this as like a failure, which I don't. I think of it as like a stepping stone to greater success.
And the business was profitable last year. So it's not like it was actually like a failed business. It just isn't the right business for me, you know, but I have lots of sweet client messages saying no, you impacted me so much. I learned so much from you and it's crazy to see that because they saw my brilliance before I even did and now as I looked back at all the things I created over the years, I can see my brilliance finally, finally, finally.
And I'm like, why didn't I just see it back then? Like how different would things be if I saw it back then? But of course, hindsight is 20-20. And the good that's come out of all of this is now I do see it. And I don't only see it for 25 year old me, like I see it for her and I see like how brilliant and wonderful and how much she poured her heart into things. And she really over-delivered in so many ways.
And I can see that for her, but I can also see that for me right now, 31 year old author of The Queen Rises, Kristen. Like I can see right now my brilliance. That is the biggest lesson I learned from my first business was I have to learn how to see my own brilliance in order for the world to respond and show me that I am in fact.
brilliant, you know, and I was actually talking to a former client in the DMs last night and she's in a really dark place right now. And, you know, she was saying that she lost her mojo and she was inspired by something I posted to my stories, which by the way, if you're a coaching client or you follow me for like mindset and manifestation stuff and you want to join my close friends on Instagram, you know how on stories you can have your close friends. I'm still sharing.
that kind of stuff to my close friends. My author brand, I'm of course keeping more about the book, but like the behind the scenes, like mindset shifts and things I'm going through to make the book a huge success that I will share here on the podcast on my sub stack and then also in my IG close friends stories. So just send me a DM if you want to join that, obviously it's Anywho, so she was responding to something I had posted there about closing down the business and I said, know,
I think in the story it was like, I don't know who needs to hear this, but when you close one door, so much abundance flows in so quickly. And that is true. So day one was grief. Grief for 25 year old me and the fact that she didn't see her own brilliance and she kept searching for her own brilliance through validation and stuff that she couldn't control instead of just like stopping and looking at herself and realizing, no, I'm pretty great. I'm pretty awesome. I'm teaching really amazing things.
I'm helping a lot of people. And if she had seen that, she would have been, she was successful, but she would have been so much more successful if she could have seen that, right? So day one was grief. Day two was feeling grateful for the lessons that she learned, right? Like, because now only because, right, only because 25 year old Kristin couldn't see her brilliance and kept searching for it and kept trying to change herself.
Only because she did that for six years, can I now look at myself, 31 year old Kristen, author of The Queen Rises and say, no, you are going to be a multimillionaire author. Like I do see you as this, you know, genre altering force. And I can honestly say I see myself that way. And I never saw myself that way in my old business. I always saw myself as not good enough.
or I have to fix one more thing or I have to hire one more mentor. I always saw myself as like a work in progress and I'm still a work in progress even now. But now I know that my work in progress self is good enough. Like the book, my debut book as an independent author is good enough to sell millions of times. And no one else has to agree with me on that because I know that for myself.
And because I know that for myself, it is going to happen. It's going to happen. I've seen it happen on a smaller scale, so it has to happen on a bigger scale. This is how the universe works. And especially if you have an undefined heart in human design, this is what you need to learn. So back to that client who messaged me, I know this is kind of like tangential, but I got to get it all out, know? Wildly imperfect podcast, but hopefully you're learning something.
So back to that client who reached out to me. She was like, I feel like I lost my mojo. Thank you so much for posting this. And I told her, if you feel like you lost your mojo because of whatever's going on in your business or your life, it's because you're looking for the proof in reality that you're good enough because right now internally, you feel not good enough. And this is the exact pattern I played out in my old business. So,
Metaphysics 101 what you feel inside reflects outside. So if inside you feel not good enough and Then you're searching outside For the evidence that you are good enough. You're not gonna see any of that evidence Right, like if you feel inside you're not good enough the universe Cannot show you that you are good enough through external evidence. It simply cannot do that because you have
decided and entered into an energetic state where you believe that you are not good enough. So what is inside reflects outside. So you can't look outside for proof that you're good enough ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever. You can't do that. You have to cultivate that internally. So you have to look at yourself, just like I had to look at my 25 year old self. And I had to realize,
She was good enough. She just didn't know it. So now I can look at myself now at 31 and I can realize I am good enough and this time I know it. This time I'm deciding it and I know it. And it doesn't matter what reality outside shows me because I know it. Right. So like I could get a bad review. could have I had a client express distaste with me the way I'm closing my business and like all of that can happen and I still know I'm good enough. Right. Like anything that happens outside.
does not change what I have decided inside. And this is where you need to get if you have an undefined heart in human design. You need to get to this place where you can look at yourself no matter what is happening externally and you know you're good enough, you know you're worthy, you know you deserve every success that you could possibly want, every dollar that you're calling in. You need to know internally, no matter what outside says, I deserve it.
I'm worthy of it, I'm good enough for it now. There's nothing I have to change about myself or fix about myself in order to be good enough for it. I don't have to earn it. This was a big lesson I cultivated in the writing of my book, which was I don't have to earn the success I want. The success I want is already promised to me by God. So I don't have to earn it, I don't have to change myself, I don't have to do anything.
to burn myself out or force myself to work harder than I have to? I mean, I'm working hard, of course, but I already know I deserve millions of book sales. I already know I deserve to be a billionaire. Yeah, I mean, that B-word scares a lot of people. It doesn't scare me. And I actually have the belief that becoming a billionaire is easy. And because I have that belief, it's going to be easy for me.
If you have the belief that becoming a millionaire or a billionaire is hard, it's going to be hard for you. I have decided it's easy. So it's going be easy for me. And, you know, there's going to be some people that hear me say that on this podcast and they're going to think to themselves, wow, she is so arrogant. She is so full of herself. No, I just love myself. I just love myself. And if you don't love yourself the way I love myself, then
That's a you problem, that's not a me problem. And that's something that you wanna work on. Because if you love yourself the way I love myself, then you will allow yourself to have untold success and riches and fame and all sorts of things. I'm asking for all sorts of things and this is gonna be a big year for me and I'm gonna take you along the journey here in the podcast, Substack, Close Friends on Instagram. So you're gonna see it all unfold for me. But you need to...
If you want the kind of success that I want, then you need to work on cultivating that unwavering belief in yourself that you are worthy, you are good enough, you deserve it now, not after you edit your book for the 3,000th time. And I edited my, yo, I edited my book, probably like, so I had four total rewrites. Three of them were top to bottom, meaning I wrote every word from scratch, essentially.
And even beyond the fourth rewrite, there were still multiple passes, you know, hired an editor, hired a proofreader. I still proofread, I want to say like half a dozen times. And like this last week, I just fixed two sections of my book that still had proofreading errors, because apparently even if you pay a proofreader, the errors just like give birth and multiply. So for the next book, I might have to hire multiple proofreaders.
or at least pay the same one for multiple passes. But I have done over six or seven proofreading passes. I did that before I published, and after publishing there were still proofreading errors. So if you're writing a book, you just have to accept that there's still gonna be errors after publishing. But I have learned that you can fix them.
So you can upload a new version of your manuscript to all the platforms if you're self-publishing. So that is a great comfort to me and I did that over the past week because there were two parts of my book that were like, this is like a really bad error. I need to fix this. So I fixed them. Anyway, that was another tangent. But the point is, even before I fixed those proofreading errors, my book was good enough to sell millions of times. And you know,
No one has to agree with me on that, right? Like no one has to give me permission to believe that I just gave myself permission, right? I gave myself permission to believe that I don't have to earn things. Do I work hard for them? Absolutely. Do you know how many hours I spent on that book? So many hours, nine months of my life. So yes, I work hard, but.
I don't believe that the hard work is indicative of what I'm going to receive because what I am going to receive is already promised to me by God. That's what I believe and I deserve it already. I deserved it even at 25. I just didn't know I deserved it back then. I deserved it even at 18 or five or zero, right? I always deserved it. And my hard work is not indicative of what
I deserve or what I get to receive. I do the hard work because I want a certain caliber of book, right? So it's more about like how I want to present myself and less about like, this is going to get me more book sales. Will it? Probably yes. I mean, a high quality product gets more sales than a low quality product. But at the same time, it doesn't have to be perfect.
And I don't have to reach mastery in my writing craft in order for it to sell millions of times. And the reason why I don't is because I decided I don't. I decided I'm good enough now. I decided I deserve it now. I decided it gets to be messy and it gets to be imperfect. And I still get to wildly succeed in my first year as a debut indie author. So yeah. Okay, so I told you a little bit about
Day one was grief. Day two, I started to distill the lessons learned and feel grateful for the version of me that learned all these lessons the hard way. Because I did learn a lot of lessons from my first business. And there were times where I was a jerk because I was scared. And there were times where I wish I had handled things differently. But some lessons, I truly believe you can only learn the hard way. You can't learn them the easy way.
just by studying what other people do, you have to learn them through experience, right? So I'm grateful for all of that. And yesterday, which was day two, after I fully decided I'm closing this business, I received a huge influx of abundance. Huge in the sense that I hadn't received this type of influx of abundance in a long, long, long, long time. And it was in the form of money, it was in the form of...
I had a lot of clients message me and say, changed my life. You did so many great things for me and I'm going to follow along your journey and see where you go next. And I love those messages. So I really appreciate everyone who reached out to me. And also, three, which is today, I started to see all of the negatives that I'm letting go of as I let go of this business.
And it's been really nice to see that because, you know, it's a hard decision. It's one of the biggest decisions I'll probably make in my life to let this go and to put my faith in the thing that's lighting me up now.
But it's really nice to see as I close things up that all those negatives I want to let go of are going to be let go of too. Right? So again, the negatives were I would get too emotionally invested in my client's success and I would feel it very deeply if they were upset with me or if they didn't succeed. Even if I did my best, I would, you know, put all this pressure on myself. And I got a message from a former client.
where she expressed distaste with how I am closing up my business. And I look at it and I'm like, thank you God. Thank you God for showing me again why I am letting this business go because, you know, there was a split second where I was feeling like, my gosh, I feel so bad. I should have done it better. But I did it the best I could, you know, I did it the best I could. And at the end of the day, like,
this is my reality, I am the creator of my reality, you are the creator of your reality. So I have to do what's best for me and you have to do what's best for you and we can't force each other to do things that we're not meant to do, right? And I'm really glad that I saw some of those negatives come through as I close up, because it's like, yes, this is proof that I'm making the right decision, because no, I do not want to experience this anymore.
And I'm not so naive to think that I'll never get like negative book reviews. I know for sure I will. I mean, for the volume I want to sell, I'm guaranteed to have negative book reviews. If you look at books that have sold millions of times, you go to their Goodreads or their Amazon page, they have three star, two star, one star reviews. So like, I am not like so naive to think I won't get those negative reviews. But the difference is I don't feel personally responsible for someone's negative.
negative experience of me or my book anymore. And I did in that old business. And I think what's happening symbolically or energetically or spiritually or however you want to think of it as I close this business is I think it's like the end of that era, the end of that era of feeling like I have to be everything to everyone, do everything for everyone. And if someone's upset with me, it's my fault. And there are times where it is my fault, right? Like I take accountability when I'm in the wrong.
And I've grown a lot in that area of my life through my business, because there were times where I didn't know how to take accountability and I didn't take accountability. But it's really cool to be where I am now and to see like as I close this business, the energetic shift is that I'm never going to go back to that. I'm never going to go back to feeling personally responsible for people's lives. And part of it is, the structure of the business, but part of it was just the energy.
through which I started the business. There were mentors I followed earlier on when I started the business who talked about how it's so important to serve. And I do believe it's important to serve others, but the mindset I was in when I heard that at 24, 25 years old was, oh, I have to...
be everything and do everything for everyone because I was in a really insecure place, right? And I was in a people pleasing energy. So I think, know, energetically, symbolically, as I close this business, it's going to be the end of that era for good. And that's exactly what I know God wants me to experience before God brings through so much more abundance for me.
And when you let something go, when you close the door, God opens a freaking house. God opens the freaking floodgates, right? Like it is so hard to let things go. But when we do in full faith that more is coming, more abundance, more money, more success, more possibilities, more opportunities, when we let go of something in total faith and trust that more is coming, then
the amount of abundance we experience is beyond anything we could have ever experienced if we held on to that thing. And holding on to things that aren't serving you, that is scarcity. That is scarcity right there, right? Like holding on to money tightly is scarcity. Holding on to a business tightly, even though you know it's not serving you, that is scarcity. And so...
when we shift back into abundance and we realize, okay, I can let this go and no one trusts that God is gonna give me something so much better when I make space for it. Man, look out. you know, day two, so day one was the day I started taking action to close the business and I was like serious about it. I knew it was a done deal. I know it was gonna happen. So that was day one. By day two, abundance started flowing in. The business isn't even fully closed yet. It takes time to close things down when you have a business.
and it's not done yet. And it'll probably take me a couple of weeks to fully, fully, fully be done. But the second day after I fully made the decision, no, I'm letting this go no matter what. I'm not gonna talk myself back into keeping it. I'm not gonna, you know, force myself to find a way to fix it. Like it's done, it's dead. Let me cut away the the dead branches and take off the dead leaves and create space for more abundance. Literally second day.
more abundance comes in, in the form of money, in the form of praise for all the good work I did in certain clients lives. So God delivers quickly. And when we're willing to let something go, my gosh, it is gonna be beyond your wildest dreams. And I haven't even checked my book sales yet, but a part of me knows the fact that I let go and I have already experienced abundance in the form of money and praise.
Of course, the book sales are increasing too. Of course, that's just how it is. I let go of something that I was holding on to out of scarcity. And when you let go of something that you're holding on to out of scarcity, it's because you're shifting back into abundance and you're like, no, there's going to be more for me. More is coming. If I let this go, I'm still going to be okay. If I let this go, I'm making space for something so much bigger and better. And I truly believe that that's the case and that this is
This was an essential step in my growth as an author and in the growth of my book. So check out my book. Check out my book if you like romantic fantasy novels. TheQueenRises.com. I went ahead and got that domain name to make it easy for you. Just go to TheQueenRises.com and find your preferred retailer. Get an ebook, get a paperback, whatever floats your boat. I make money from all of them. So just pick whichever one you want to get and you're most excited by and read the book.
Read the book. And if you like this podcast episode, I would love to hear from you. Send me a DM on Instagram. I'm at Kristen dot Cipriano at Kristen dot Cipriano. And I'll link that in the show notes for you. So, yeah, that is that. I feel like that's all I have to say. I might make another episode, but of course, I'm going to be creating episodes regularly. I have started to build my podcast set or.
rather my husband has started to build my podcast set. And I'm really excited to get that finished up. It'll probably take another couple of weeks, but I'm gonna create some audio podcasts while I do laundry today. stay subscribed and let me know how you like this. And I hope you have an amazing day.